Love hit wrongly again ❤️

Once was hurt and love hits again 💔

I once thought and swear nt to like anyone small but i guess 😢 Idk it's just as frustrated as idk exams ? 

    

     I never thought I would like even not on him Bcs his someone who is like my bro 😂 But I guess I'm just in love ? Idk In love ? Complicated ? Idk 😒 Never thought something like tht will happen 😞 

Getting to know eventhough I like him , I guess me + him = IMPOSSIBLE 😂 It will be awkward like idk . I always say no one and nobody can control love Bcs it's uncontrollable but I guess I needa try 😢 Hope I succeed .

'Eh bestie, be awesome :) Be brave be u and the u I know '

'Be brave , be you :) Never give up on the one u love most ❤️'

Heartbreaker❤️

Hearts apart,

Shattered all over ,

Trying to pick up and build it back,

As your building it ,

You realize ,

He is just a heartbreaker ,

His job is to date, love , break.

As soon you realize ,

You stop crying and start smiling ,

You think tht , 

He treat you well buy he left you abandoned .

You stood up and smile ,

Telling yourself ' I'll roar like a tiger , sting like a bee , attack you and be the champion '

As time gone by ,

You start building a wall in your heart and stable yourself :) 

~ As  sunsets , I'll attack you like how you did ~ 

Hurt done

Bird Chripping,

Flowers Blooming,

Love found,

Love unfound </3

Heart broken,

Smile lost in the dark </3

The hurt someone cause hurts like never before </3 The pain , The hurt and the tears! The word spoken by you are just mean pain and full of hurt </3 

A girl lost ,

A girl found ,

A girl never reveal,

Spoken to be a beast,

Spoken to be a lady ❤

Words and story spoken but the real story was the girl wanted to hide from the word said by her love one who love her and left her for who she is ~

'The hurt done was never heal </3'

Mooncake Celebration Party <3

Yesterday part was a blast ❤Not everyone came but my some Ji mui of mine came :) The BBQ was delicious :P They said they don't want to eat , they actually ate a lot :) 

There's also steamboat :) but we didn't had any Bcs BBQ was even awesome :p My neighbor and family join us :) We all laugh and laugh :) After the party we went up into my room and start laughing and we play 'The cup song ' it's was really funny , how we wanted to do a duel :p

'The fun part wouldn't last but our friendship will last '

                              -Panda Xuan-

First year helding a party of mine :/ Guess it was a success :D

Peter Pan

How I wish I was the girl going to Neverland ❤❤ A land no one will grow up , having fun and falling in love with Peter ❤ The girl on his back is just so lucky , how I wish I was as lucky as that girl but that's just a story of Peter Pan !

     It's 14/9 !! Valentines day is here ❤ Spend a day with your love ones and tell them how much u love and adore them :) Celebrate with a broad smile :) That lucky girl or boy will appreciate it :)

     As for me :/ staying at home with my piano and watching Peter Pan :) it was really inspiring :) telling me tht the one you love will grow up to be an adult and we will have to grow too :) I'll try to maintain our relationship , your whole world change as I stand there looking at your world burn and change :( it's so harm to believe :( At last we say goodbye to each other :( I finally see it , I gotta believe 

I try , but I can't see what you see

I try and try to understand the distance in between..

So I try and finally believe ❤

I try to fly too 

'All those  precious stories , All the world is made with faith and trust and pixie dust ❤'

                                   ~Panda Xuan ~ 

Love ❤😘

Love is hard,

Love is difficult,

Love is what they called love ❤

Sometimes loving someone is hard . The reason is Bcs sometimes being in love will cause us being scolded by people , hate❤

But thinking on the positive side , it's actually sweet ❤ Im actually in love , I mean like someone la. He has a great personality, smile and he always made me smile no matter what :) He is like someone who brighten up my day , a someone who is all caring eventhough he place his times in computer games , I still like him like always❤ All sweet and I don't know , I just fall into him , I guess . I don't see him much but I remember his beautiful smile :D  Yeah so he is a sweet guy :p

J.L~I can't forget you but I know I am over you for the hurt , u brought to me on 3/7 :) You're a great boyfie once and will be in the future for tht lucky girl ❤ You change but I hope the other girl will accept the fact tht you change :) HOPE  U FIND A BETTER SOMEONE :) Smile :D 

Always is a friend of yours 

'You left me , but hope you find a better one and maintain your beautiful smile '

                  ~panda Xuan~

#single life 2 months 6 days 

Breakable day

Broke on 3/7 , it was an awful break up <3 Got scolded seriously , I texted him on 3/7 on 6 pm Happy 1st Monthsary, remember that I love u ❤ All he said was ok :) Than I instagram about a Friend Bcs we went into a arguement :( and so I did some hastags #one#month#him#happy . But I guess I shouldn't he thought I was writing about him and he don't give me time to explain </3 and so it ends right here ...

     

' A world all alone after that hard day , harden my heart . To never trust anyone and not putting hopes on anyone anymore '

                       ~Panda Xuan~

        

My heart sank and tears drip , hours of sadness </3 I told myself to stay strong and never cry . My gang and friends and besties and sisters were all here for me ❤ I will be lost by now without them :( On 5/7 I sent a sorry letter but was never replied :( I guess we r nt even friends .. Sometimes at night I think of our pass and his smile was just *sigh* I guess until here its over anyway </3 .. 2 months and 5days he has been gone and no more 

'I thought he will never push me into the water , but I guess he did '

                          ~Panda Xuan~

#my time with him was short but was the happiest of all <3 But he changed

The past , I remember

Past two months on 3rd day of each month , it is a monthsary of mine but it turns out to be the day when I lost him </3 The real him !! The one I love and the one I care ❤ It's hard to except we broke ❤ I really love him that I thought , we would last for YEARS and YEARS but I guess not :( 

        I knew him and it was like love at first sight :) Him with his charming and sweet smile . I really was in love :) I knew him more as day passes, he was all sweet and charming and really cute :) He was a really nice guy I met and I was totally in love ❤

         After we were together :) I trusted him and really put all my hopes on him which I never did before :) He is my everything :) His smile is the sweetest I get and the best ❤ He accompany until midnight through Skype and calls :) He was a blur buffalo :) He plays piano when I'm literally alone :) I smile and really loved him :) During the holiday on one Friday , my besties wanted to go FC and I wanted to fetch her and as I go in the school , he see me :) I remember he running to me and shouting my name Xiao Xuan and wanted to hug me .. I used my leg and block :p it was really cute :) He also did a charming smile :) I really love his smile

     But as time passes he changed and changed into someone I don't know :( I feel like I don't know anything about him :( Our relationship became real cold . I wrote caption on Facebook and Instagram which is pretty sad and mostly about relationship . I wasn't really writing about him .. I was just following the photo .. On our first monthsary which was on 3rd of July , I texted him happy monthsary and he reply ok . Than I wrote something which is something about you don't care about me and hashtag #one #month and he mistaken and thought I was writing about him , infect he thought I was all writing about him , I tried to explain and really tries but I guess I'm too  dump ... I said sorry and wanted to explain but I just say lets be friend but after seen , it was never replied ... 

            I really miss someone being by my side all the time but I guess , No :(

      ' The time passes quickly and he just changed '

                        ~Panda Xuan ~

The rain

The rain fall

The rain dries❤

The rain is something ,almost same as the tears and blood ❤

They drip and drip until it stop ❤

The tears under the rain ❤

Which means pain</3

The pain,

The rain,

Mix together which mean heart broken </3

The hurt , the scar , the pain pls flow away with the rain ❤ 

      

       'The Pain, The Rain, Flows away ❤'

                           ~Panda Xuan~ 

Time machine ❤

There are thousand and million of scientist in the world but why non of them created a time machine? Alexander Graham Bell , Alexander Flaming and all those brilliant scientist but why non of them ?

   Is time machine tht hard to be build or are people just lazy or are they nt thinking hard enough? I really don't know why but if there really is a time machine , we children will be glad !

    The time I really want to go back is the time when I am with him and my first day of high school ❤ I really regret both of this moment :( my first day of school is that I really hope to study well and concentrate on my studies and I guess if I did that , I will be a genius or a brilliant girl by now :)

I would even have a bright idea ! Thinking here and there and answering all questions around me ! 

   The time with him , it was all sweet and lastly turning out to be bitter :( going back being him , I just wanted to see his smile once again and Thts all . Over him but I just still remember his sweet little charming smile , which makes me think that I will be safe with him :) but it's over and the past :) 

    Praying hard for a time machine <3

'The past,The memories , sweet and bitter , I just can't forget❤'

                              ~Panda Xuan~ 

Memories ❤

Memories ❤ There are thousand and million and zillion memories running through my head ❤ Happy ,bitter and sour one </3 They are all bunch of memories ❤ 

Sweet memories are memories which makes you smile ❤ Memories which makes me smile is being with a bunch of crazy monkeys ( Utamians) They are just bunch of awesome people , I have met ! I just can't forget  the time , meeting them ❤

Sour memories to me is something which makes you cry and laugh ❤ Sour memories , I have is the past time me and him were still together ❤ We laugh and joke and Thts the memories , I love the most ❤ He used to make me smile but Is guess is the pass and let's leave it and say goodbye Bcs I'm over him

Bitter memories are actually sad memories which makes you cry ❤ The saddest memories was saying goodbye to someone I love and someone I put all my hopes on

Memories here and there never will I forget ❤

We are always together ❤💙 Hold on tight and begin

Actually having gangs , friends and sister is an awesome stuff ❤ When you are sad, they make you laugh ❤ When they are sad , it's your turn ❤ See , I have this group of sisters or you can say a big gang of family , I can truly count on ❤ They are awesomely perfect , they have great friendship , they have awesome attitude ❤ They know how to make people feel happy around them ❤ 

L.P.Wen ❤ This is a girl I met oni two years or a year ❤ We weren't that when we first met ❤ I remember her have being all shy and yeah chubby :33 But when I know her , she starts being crazy and that's how we became tht close ! We went out shopping together ❤ We Skype all day long ❤ and more 

C.Teow.K.W ❤ We met during our childhood, same school , same tuition ! We became great friends since at a young age ❤ I love her and she love me ❤ 

Nicole❤ Yeah , this girl ~cool !! We weren't close and we met only this year but we became really close ❤ We Skype at night and talk about , what we call ~Life~

L.Xuan.Chong ❤ We are like born to be besties ❤ We laugh together and we first met , we have lots of stuff to be spoken , like we have known each other for years ! Really love this hyper woman ❤

J.Ying ❤ She is crazy and sampat like me ❤ We called each other sampat , crazy and a lot ❤ I just can't forget how crazy we chatted . She is a cute and yeah ~ taller than me Girl XP

J.Ee❤ This tall girl, she is young , hyper and peaceful ! She makes me

Laugh , when I'm down ! We talk and talk and talk and talk like non- stop ! When I'm crying , she always tries to make me smile ❤ She some how keep calling herself elephant but she's always tht perfect girl to me

J.Yee~ Crazy girl here and there , push me here and there ! I just can't believe how crazy can she be ❤ She is a crazy girl ! MINIONS XP HAHAHA

Kok.C~ 這個傻老傻傻的。可是也是很會逗人笑的一個好兄弟！他這個兄弟，設麼都不怕！eh，老兄你真的夠力咯 :P

J.Chan.L.C~ Hmm, this guy is always a friendly guy , he first met me, he talk a lot , he makes people laugh their ass out :) We may nt know each other much but consider Bros ! 

Ah Kang 〜 他啊，這個老兄很好人，天真死了-,-可愛死了（屁股我比他可愛多）你啊，不要怪蘭！他很好人真的很好，什麼都能告訴他！我們兄弟是不會分的！你啊，照顧好她！謝謝了老兄 ！

There won't be anyone separating us , I love you them ❤ With all my heart❤ Thanks for everything ❤

Best friends are always important ❤

Relationship ❤HIM ❤

Relationships are hard ❤

You have to go through sad moment and even worst a heart broken moment </3 I have been true it. But when I am in a relationship ❤ we girls think a lot ! We'll let's say , why don't we leave it there And let it go naturally cause if u think to much u hurt oni Urself nt him /her ❤ 

Being in love 

❤Being in love or what we call true love ❤there are two ways of how people like tht particular person . First by their outer looks . Second by their inner . If u look on tht particular person's outer look please don't, it's what we call mean ! Try to look on the person inner instead of the outer . I know a boy , he has a really cute personality and somehow he managed to make me laugh❤ I am in love for his personality and him but nt the outer area Bcs what's important is u truly love tht person ❤ 

❤Nothing matters but You ❤

-Panda Xuan❤-

Miserable

Being miserable is something I do.. I go to school, people bullies me or even just talk bad about me and much more..  Especially a guy who really hates me and just insult me , called me elephant .. I wasn't really happy when he insult me or anything but is just like an everyday life things .. I hope for change and really hope to be non-miserable.. 😞😞😞  

Things u must pay Bcs of being playful

A playful person! 

I have always been a playful person since 1999.. Almost everything I said people thought I was playing (almost) .. People don't trust you Bcs u r over jokeful.. I am jokeful but I don't know tht particular person can't take it too and I am sorry , I shouldn't have been so playful 😞😞 My exams marked is nt tht good Bcs I just love to play and enjoy life.. Should I stop ? I hurt the person I love and has almost lost tht person's trust on me Bcs I have been joking but my love to tht particular person has been always thick and will never change Bcs I will love tht person and will till the end.. Hoping for forgiveness and thx 😞😞😞

天下的媽媽＜3

天下沒有不愛自己的孩子的媽媽，

天下沒有不把孩子養好的媽媽，

可是天下有一個很愛護自己孩子的媽媽！

問你問題，要老實的回答噢！

你已經幾年沒有真真的跟媽媽說'我愛你'了？

你有緊緊把媽媽抱住嗎？

沒有？有？

你自己知道！

如果沒有趕快去告訴她！

媽媽我愛你！

當你媽媽聽到時，應該會有很多淚慢慢的 從她臉留下來！

說以快點真心的告訴她吧：）

Exams!!

Exam is giving me lots of lots of stress! Arghhh!!

How about you are you having stress?

Are you nervous?😥😥😥

I am !!

History,Science,Geography,English,Moraland etc....

Wow that's a lot!! Getting frustrated !! 

But that doesn't matter!!! Two more days and my night mare is over! 🐼🐼🐼🐼

Just gt back and had a shower just now and had bought an iPhone case and a disc(haunted one😜) ! Was hoping to watch with my cousin Xue Ying this Saturday night!

Until here nights! 🐼🐼🐼

~Panda🐼🐼🐼~

TRYING

Trying isn't a hard thing!

People always give up just bcs they failed once!

What do people give us another chance?

It is for us to try!

So started trying and give your chance a second chance!

I didn't notice it until now but it is never too late

~Panda~