Hurt done

Bird Chripping,

Flowers Blooming,

Love found,

Love unfound </3

Heart broken,

Smile lost in the dark </3

The hurt someone cause hurts like never before </3 The pain , The hurt and the tears! The word spoken by you are just mean pain and full of hurt </3 

A girl lost ,

A girl found ,

A girl never reveal,

Spoken to be a beast,

Spoken to be a lady ❤

Words and story spoken but the real story was the girl wanted to hide from the word said by her love one who love her and left her for who she is ~

'The hurt done was never heal </3'

Mooncake Celebration Party <3

Yesterday part was a blast ❤Not everyone came but my some Ji mui of mine came :) The BBQ was delicious :P They said they don't want to eat , they actually ate a lot :) 

There's also steamboat :) but we didn't had any Bcs BBQ was even awesome :p My neighbor and family join us :) We all laugh and laugh :) After the party we went up into my room and start laughing and we play 'The cup song ' it's was really funny , how we wanted to do a duel :p

'The fun part wouldn't last but our friendship will last '

                              -Panda Xuan-

First year helding a party of mine :/ Guess it was a success :D

Peter Pan

How I wish I was the girl going to Neverland ❤❤ A land no one will grow up , having fun and falling in love with Peter ❤ The girl on his back is just so lucky , how I wish I was as lucky as that girl but that's just a story of Peter Pan !

     It's 14/9 !! Valentines day is here ❤ Spend a day with your love ones and tell them how much u love and adore them :) Celebrate with a broad smile :) That lucky girl or boy will appreciate it :)

     As for me :/ staying at home with my piano and watching Peter Pan :) it was really inspiring :) telling me tht the one you love will grow up to be an adult and we will have to grow too :) I'll try to maintain our relationship , your whole world change as I stand there looking at your world burn and change :( it's so harm to believe :( At last we say goodbye to each other :( I finally see it , I gotta believe 

I try , but I can't see what you see

I try and try to understand the distance in between..

So I try and finally believe ❤

I try to fly too 

'All those  precious stories , All the world is made with faith and trust and pixie dust ❤'

                                   ~Panda Xuan ~ 

Love ❤😘

Love is hard,

Love is difficult,

Love is what they called love ❤

Sometimes loving someone is hard . The reason is Bcs sometimes being in love will cause us being scolded by people , hate❤

But thinking on the positive side , it's actually sweet ❤ Im actually in love , I mean like someone la. He has a great personality, smile and he always made me smile no matter what :) He is like someone who brighten up my day , a someone who is all caring eventhough he place his times in computer games , I still like him like always❤ All sweet and I don't know , I just fall into him , I guess . I don't see him much but I remember his beautiful smile :D  Yeah so he is a sweet guy :p

J.L~I can't forget you but I know I am over you for the hurt , u brought to me on 3/7 :) You're a great boyfie once and will be in the future for tht lucky girl ❤ You change but I hope the other girl will accept the fact tht you change :) HOPE  U FIND A BETTER SOMEONE :) Smile :D 

Always is a friend of yours 

'You left me , but hope you find a better one and maintain your beautiful smile '

                  ~panda Xuan~

#single life 2 months 6 days 

Breakable day

Broke on 3/7 , it was an awful break up <3 Got scolded seriously , I texted him on 3/7 on 6 pm Happy 1st Monthsary, remember that I love u ❤ All he said was ok :) Than I instagram about a Friend Bcs we went into a arguement :( and so I did some hastags #one#month#him#happy . But I guess I shouldn't he thought I was writing about him and he don't give me time to explain </3 and so it ends right here ...

     

' A world all alone after that hard day , harden my heart . To never trust anyone and not putting hopes on anyone anymore '

                       ~Panda Xuan~

        

My heart sank and tears drip , hours of sadness </3 I told myself to stay strong and never cry . My gang and friends and besties and sisters were all here for me ❤ I will be lost by now without them :( On 5/7 I sent a sorry letter but was never replied :( I guess we r nt even friends .. Sometimes at night I think of our pass and his smile was just *sigh* I guess until here its over anyway </3 .. 2 months and 5days he has been gone and no more 

'I thought he will never push me into the water , but I guess he did '

                          ~Panda Xuan~

#my time with him was short but was the happiest of all <3 But he changed

The past , I remember

Past two months on 3rd day of each month , it is a monthsary of mine but it turns out to be the day when I lost him </3 The real him !! The one I love and the one I care ❤ It's hard to except we broke ❤ I really love him that I thought , we would last for YEARS and YEARS but I guess not :( 

        I knew him and it was like love at first sight :) Him with his charming and sweet smile . I really was in love :) I knew him more as day passes, he was all sweet and charming and really cute :) He was a really nice guy I met and I was totally in love ❤

         After we were together :) I trusted him and really put all my hopes on him which I never did before :) He is my everything :) His smile is the sweetest I get and the best ❤ He accompany until midnight through Skype and calls :) He was a blur buffalo :) He plays piano when I'm literally alone :) I smile and really loved him :) During the holiday on one Friday , my besties wanted to go FC and I wanted to fetch her and as I go in the school , he see me :) I remember he running to me and shouting my name Xiao Xuan and wanted to hug me .. I used my leg and block :p it was really cute :) He also did a charming smile :) I really love his smile

     But as time passes he changed and changed into someone I don't know :( I feel like I don't know anything about him :( Our relationship became real cold . I wrote caption on Facebook and Instagram which is pretty sad and mostly about relationship . I wasn't really writing about him .. I was just following the photo .. On our first monthsary which was on 3rd of July , I texted him happy monthsary and he reply ok . Than I wrote something which is something about you don't care about me and hashtag #one #month and he mistaken and thought I was writing about him , infect he thought I was all writing about him , I tried to explain and really tries but I guess I'm too  dump ... I said sorry and wanted to explain but I just say lets be friend but after seen , it was never replied ... 

            I really miss someone being by my side all the time but I guess , No :(

      ' The time passes quickly and he just changed '

                        ~Panda Xuan ~